Let Go

I listened to this song on and off most of the night.  For some reason, I never realized how powerfully emotional this song is.   I almost became obsessive about it... hitting replay.  It hurts... but yet I keep touching it.   I imagined my life the past few years like I am on one of those airport moving walkways... images flashing before me of the events but all I see is the light reflected on my face.  Good and bad, refreshing and humiliating.  I don't feel like crying.  I don't feel like smiling.  I think far too much.  My chest feels like it's about to explode or collapse.  There is beauty in the breakdown.