Monday, April 30, 2007

All At Sea

I am in one of the moods where I am just calm.  Which is coincidentally what I was called at work this week... They recognized me for something I had done and one of the words they used to describe me was calm... I am sailing across a placid sea... occasionally spinning in a circle and continuing on. 

I think I am just preparing myself mentally for the next couple hectic weeks.  My group at work has just been overloaded the past couple weeks... and it got a whole lot worse last Thursday.  In addition to work being busy... I am down to the last three weeks in school with 4 chapters to read and only two lectures between now and the exam.  Unfortunately it feels like a crash course in human genetics and will take a lot of studying. 

A few years ago Kelly and I went to Maui for a week.  We went snorkeling near this reef that had a bunch of sea turtles swimming around it... As we were leaving the boat was slowly going back to the dock and I was standing near the back.  I looked down into the water and it was a million colors of blue.  It looked like silk... smooth... fluid... undisturbed even as the boat cut across it... I took a picture not expecting it to come out and to my wonderful surprise... it looks exactly how it was that day.  I will have to scan it to share on here.  Anyway... when I think of the word calm... I picture myself gliding across water like that... floating... skimming the surface.  I feel patient... and I NEVER feel patient.  I can just... be.  It's a good feeling.  Hopefully the next two weeks won't take too much out of me. 

Friday, April 27, 2007

WTB Dry Ice

What a day...

I am just spent.  My brain is fried (see previous post).  So many things going on at work.  Thank god it's the weekend and I can attempt to relax.  I couldn't fall asleep last night because everytime I laid down all I could think about was work.  Its just been kicking my butt this week.  My boss looked like he was ready to cry in our meeting yesterday.  George is this really really sweet guy from Bulgaria.  He is just so awesome to work for but I wish I could make things easier on him.  We have so many deadlines coming up.  We get these requests in from agencies around the world wanting research and statements from the company on our drugs.  George heads 5 drugs and it seems like each of them has an issue.  Next week he goes to the EMEA in London, which is the equivalent of the FDA for the US.  Two others on my team are traveling as well.  It gets really hectic and I am here to "hold down the fort". 

Yesterday I uploaded some pictures from my trip to the zoo last month.  One of my favorites is also the most creepy...

Yeah.. what the hell. 

Anyway, it's the weekend.  I only have a few hours left of work.  Yay me.  Back on Monday.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Thursday Torment

Thursdays suck.  Seriously.  It's like alllllllllllllmost - but not quite - the weekend.  I despise Thursdays.  The funny thing is... I am doing absolutely nothing on the weekend.  It is going to be everything I ever hoped for.  I may study a bit.  I only have two more lecture weeks of class left and 5 chapters to read... Almost finished though.  I am taking a light course in the summer and returning in the fall. 

I honestly have no idea where the month of April went.  This coming Monday is the 30th... where did the month go?  Work and school have just kept me so busy.  Maybe that's a good thing?  I don't know...

Anyway, here is some naked Homer.

And a new song from The Used.  Have fun, go mad. 

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Brain = Fried

So I completed my exam last night.  I think I got at least a B on it.  There were only a couple questions I wasn't sure about.  Today I get to pick out my classes for the summer and fall.  I have been really questioning what I want to do.  If I want to take off the summer and just go back in the fall or if I should take something easy to continue on.  It's a hard choice...  It would be nice to finish. 

Work should be really light today.  My team is very busy and one of our most important guys is very sick.  Luckily though.. no meetings today.

It's yet another sunny beautiful day outside. *insert sad face here*  California hates me.  Isn't there some saying.. "April showers bring May flowers" or some crap like that...?  Why doesn't that happen here??? Alright... here are a few clips of my current favorite comedy... The Office.  Enjoy.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Move Along Like I Know You Do

What a day.. what a day... Exam Day... Meeting Day... Yay for me.  My big meeting this morning didn't go so well... there were technical difficulties with the conference call line and the people in Europe couldn't be heard but could hear us.  So of course when I got back to my office there were 500 nasty emails saying I had them muted..........

This is what I have to say to them...

Yeah that's right... I said...  

It's the day of my exam... I am 90% confident.  Maybe I will be able to make up that 10% deficiency throughout today.  Anyway... I have to go... people are arguing and I need to moderate it.

Visual Represenation

This is exactly how I felt this morning... complete with squeaks and hiding my face from the light.  Can I go back to bed now?

Monday, April 23, 2007

Paste Personality

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot?
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd

This weekend was... eventful.  I lost a friendship that had been slowly falling apart since the beginning of the year.  It is this horrible feeling of loss and guilt for not trying to make it work... but at the same time...  Relationships should not be this hard.  Also, said friend should not use phrases said by people from my past against me.  It is extremely hurtful and does not reflect reality at all.  I like my life, I enjoy my friendships and if that phrase was true... I would still be in Florida, I would still be miserable and in a dead end life and relationship.  But I am not.  Furthermore... if said friend had paid any attention whatsoever they would know said phrase was completely false. 

I miss so many things from this friendship it hurts.  But at the same time... it hasn't been good for awhile... I don't want to rewind the clock.  I doubt I can recreate the way things used to be... I just need to slowly forget if there is no hope.  It would be so much better if we were hamsters wouldn't it?

Anyway, I am in the middle of Biological Anthropology hell and I can't look away from my notes.  My exam is tomorrow and I think I am around 75% confident.  I bought a book on Seattle this weekend called Access Seattle.  Can't be more excited.. I need a vacation and I need some rain.  It sprinkled this weekend and it's completely sunny today.  Boo. 

Here is something to make you go awww... or maybe it's just something to make me feel better.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Pinch Me

So yeah... I am taking off Friday again (this is beginning to be a habit...) My boss is not coming in and I am going to work from home.  By work I mean check my email every once and awhile.. study and sleep in.  Anyway, I am running off to get some lunch and head to a meeting.  I don't know why I love this song so much. 

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

One Fine Day

I can't wait to take my vacation in Seattle... I dream about it almost constantly... I am beyond excited. 

That video didn't have nearly enough rain in it...

Anyway, it is another quiet day.  I have class tonight but I didn't have an early meeting this morning so it's okay.  I wish I were as comfortable as this bunny...


OMG... *Laughing So Hard I'm Crying*

I want one!!! So cute.  So funny.  So obscene.  I love it!

Monday, April 16, 2007

Okay... So I've Been Absent...

I'm sorry.  Wednesday I was really busy... Thursday I was sick... and Friday I went to work and then came home just continue to working on my laptop.  Over the next week I am going to spend it studying my ass off once again.  I just can't see how I am going to get it all done... but I am going to try.  Anyway, I am feeling better.  Still have a cough but then again I always cough.  I have lots of meetings this week staring me down.  But thankfully none today.  I promise I will be back tomorrow. 

I have become addicted to watching The Office with Ian.  It is the funniest show ever.  Also, the cutest.  Enjoy!

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

Unable To Sleep.

I just laid in bed... tossing and turning... So much stuff on my mind.  I don't think I feel good.  At least today is Thursday.. which means tomorrow is Friday...  So yay.  I just took something that should make my head stop hurting and make me fall asleep.  So I better go.  Goodnight again.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007


There are some days that are very clear.  I know what I want, where I am going and when I am going to arrive.  Then there are other days when I am almost lost.  There is static in my head and white noise filling my ears.  That was yesterday.  Today... I am clear again.. The 'rabbit ears' have been adjusted.  Back on track I hope. 

I have been experimenting with my hair.  It was all inspired by this weekend when I purchased (among others..) a nice red tanktop with small white polkadots.  I have always flirted with a 40s, 50s-ish type style (when I feel like flirting with style...) but yesterday I rocked the high waisted slacks with the tanktop, white dress shirt and black round toe kitten heels.  I pulled my hair back into bun/chignon and did a big flip/bang hair sprayed thing in the front that turned out pretty cute.  For ideas I went here: - Pin-Up Punk Rock and Goth Girls

If you don't know the Suicide Girls... you should.  It is one of the few places that include girls that actually look real.  Natural boobs, hair colors other than blonde... Granted some of the girls are a tad different... Perfect example is the girl named Elf.  Anyway, some of them have the whole 40s/50s/Rockabilly look down to a science.  If I ever had a style.. it would be a mesh between this (mostly wearable to work of course...), the whole skirt, pearl necklace and heels look and the weekend wear of jeans, sweatshirts and flip flops.  Yes, in California we are that silly.  We wear sweatshirts and flip flops at the same time. 

Alright, I am off to finish work and then head to class.  Back tomorrow I hope. 

Thursday, April 5, 2007

God Is A Slut


Alright... so I been slacking a bit on my posts. Between work and school my life is pretty full. But it is getting better and I am able to handle more and more. Before I go further... please check out this trailer. Now, this movie is pretty controversial in that it is highly political... especially with the religious right that doesn't put much stock in science - especially the science of global warming. But I watched it over the weekend and it's worth posting... Put aside the lame scare tactics of the trailer... it was a genuinely good movie and really makes you think about the world as a whole - as opposed to the ever popular personal bubble that most of us live. I suggest you give it a shot.

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And in conjunction with this trailer... I give you the new Linkin Park song "What I've Done" due out on their new album May 15th. It's different from their usual stuff and I like it a lot. Plus Chester is rockin' a fauxhawk of sorts. Always sexy.

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One of the reasons we should care about the environment... so little babies can toddle around like in the Linkin Park video and so awesome baby ducks can grow and prosper.

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Oh yeah... and so cute baby kittens can go head to head with tissue boxes and win.

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On a slightly funny note... Here is something for Chris. LAME... but for some reason he likes it.

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So anyway, this is my last post of the week (I believe... unless I surprise myself and post tomorrow). I am taking Friday off... Yeah that's right. I said it. I am taking it off. I need a day off... my brain is just wiped out. So is my body... I just need to relax... I love this song... so much...

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And to make sure everyone who reads this hates me with a passion... A little throw back to my high school days... *insert bounce to the pop music and touch out to the cameras...* "Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around... it's all.. it's all because of you..." HAHA! Have a good weekend! Back on Monday.

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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

One Beat Bunny

I had one giant meeting today that just beat me up... now I think if I had a blankey, a pillow and a binky (just kidding.. kinda...) I could sleep like a baby.  Anyway, the weekend was really good.  No emergencies... got stuff done... and it didn't feel too short.  Well... sort of... I'm outta here.......



I am in this sleepy happy mood today... Which is funny because I got a little teary eyed in a meeting this morning.  Someone said Baby and then someone else said Worm.. (don't ask why..) and Baby Worm was the name of one of Kody's cats.  Baby Worm had a whole different personality than most cats.... she loved attention... she loved DEMANDING that attention... She had extremely long legs and a long tail... Kody would work late nights and she would keep me company.. curled up in my lap or next to the computer... She was perfectly content with being loved and snuggling up to you.  In the days leading up to me leaving him... I cried quite frequently not because I was leaving Kody but because I was going to miss Baby Worm so much.  I still do... such an awesome cat.  But... meh... My life is completely different from what it used to be... even before I left for Florida.  I am so very grateful. 

Anyway, not too much going on... steadily busy with plenty of time to finish things.  I am going to a birthday dinner tonight... and then home for some alone time. YAY! 

Good Music - Good Movie... Enjoy~