Wednesday, December 19, 2007

The past few days I haven't been able to post... I have just been flooded with stuff from Family Emergencies to "Meeties" to finishing up things at work. I've been busy. I have decided that now is the time to post my final thoughts before the end of the year. The rest of this week is going to be lots of work. Then it's Christmas and two days after that Ian is here. We are most likely going to be busy, so I just don't see myself posting at all before 2008.

My overall thoughts about this year are *insert instrumental music here*... It was a really good year. I lost some friends a long the way. I gained the greatest boyfriend I've ever had. Our relationship has been tested and we pulled through. I had the best birthday I've ever had in my entire life and I doubt that I will ever top it... but if I stay with Ian I am sure he will make each one better. I proved that I could go back to school and do better than I did in the past. I landed a permanent job at a very good company and enjoy the perks of said job. I bought a Rocking Fluffy Rubber Ducky with Ian. I learned from 2006 and remind myself daily of it. And lastly, I know how lucky I am... even if I have the worst day... it's tremendously better than any day in my past.

For 2008... I know that my relationship with Ian will continue to be tested because the distance is horrible... and if we get into an argument... we can't see each other's face and enjoy the benefits of affection... but I hope that we will continue to remind each other that... many coincidences and signs brought us together and what we have is worth it all. I hope that the situation at my work gets better. We develop medicines that help people through deadly diseases. It is not all about making money. The benefit outweighs the risk. People need to be reminded of that. I hope that I am able to become comfortable once again in my skin. Lately... I feel uncomfortable 99% of the time... I am sure that doesn't make me the happiest person to be around... but I hope to work through it. Ian helps me with it.

And there it is... my thoughts about the past and my hopes for the future. *end instrumental music*

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and Have a wonderful New Year. I know I will.

And here's something to tap your toes to... I'll be back in 2008!

Friday, December 14, 2007

Oh Hey It's Friday

So... Yeah I had a little family emergency and had to leave work to go to the hospital. But now I think I am sick... GREAT! Tomorrow I get glasses. YAY. Or at least start the process of getting glasses. Christmas is almost here... and so is Ian.

For now... enjoy some electronic bubble wrap...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

*Topples Over*

I have a feeling that I am going to topple over a lot when I'm pregnant.

Pregnancy Balance

Still Want A Sloth

3 words... Diapered Sloth Butt

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Gingerbread Ducky!

Yeah, that's right... I got a gingerbread ducky when Ian was here. I took it to work and it was a big hit. My boss is now off to the horrible Denmark trip that I had to plan... so things are really busy for me. Big meetings, lots of calls, tons of documents to look over and send out. But 13 days left until Christmas and 15 days until Ian gets here. I can try to last. The time between the two trips has gone quickly for me... not quick enough but definitely better than the previous times.

All want for Christmas..... is you................. You know who you are.. =P

Monday, December 10, 2007

It's Beginning To...

Look A Lot Like Christmas... Every... where... you go...

Okay, so I am finally in the Christmas mood. 14 days people.. Fourteen Days!!! It was really cold over the weekend which was awesome... but I want some rain. They said it was going to rain last week and it never happened... boo.

Let's play Santa's Lap:

I've been a good girl this year... and I want:

1) Ian
2) Seattle Seahawks Jersey
3) Nintendo DS Limited Edition Bundle - Rose
4) Anything Ducky related
5) New Dishes
6) A cotton bathrobe to go with my ducky slippers

Anyway, it's going to be another long and stressful week. I have to go prepare for a meeting. Have a good one!

Friday, December 7, 2007

It's Friday, oh yes it is. *does some more jigging* I really needed this weekend to happen. Even though it might suck, I need the time away from work so badly.

FYI... If I had a baby badger I would name him Oreo. Just so ya'll know.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Support The Writers... not viewing or posting cute videos on the internet!

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Bad Taste

So the Spice Girls have reunited and are touring. Scary. Not the Spice Girl. Honestly, I never was a HUGE fan... but I did listen to their music. Everyone did at that age. Shut up.

My favorite song. I don't know why. Shut up.

Colors of the world - SPICE UP YOUR LIFE. Every boy and every girl - SPICE UP YOUR LIFE.

Sleeping And Posting

I am not sure why I can't sleep right now. I know there are a ton of factors though... I seem to have no tolerance for smells today. I thought I kept smelling dust all day. Then when I got home it was some weird cooking smell that I can't pinpoint or make go away. I have a ton of stuff on my plate at work. I lay down and I start thinking about it... all the stuff I have to do before year end... then I throw in the personal stuff I have to do by year end and it's this vicious cycle of worries. I can't wait for the days when I can worry about having to change Emma instead of worrying about my boss that needs his hand held. I love working for him don't get me wrong... but some days it's a bit much. Lately, it seems every day there's an issue about something that I have to reassure him multiple times about. But today was an overall bad work day. I just got volunteered to do a bunch of projects and meetings on top of my already overloaded schedule. Swamped doesn't begin to describe it. To top it off I broke my glasses when Ian was here and they won't get fixed for 2 weeks.

Ian's visit is helping me get through it all though. Every time we have to part it is just heartbreaking. It was supposed to get easier... but it seems the more I fall when I am with him the harder it is. At Thanksgiving it was just as hard as it has ever been. I hated it because of all the people watching... They see these two people... just absolutely crushed because they are separating... crying their eyes out. Even after he walked through the beginning of the security line... there was space for him to stop and hold onto me with a barrier between us. We had spent the entire time together just being sick... and yet I loved every minute.

Anyway, just getting my worries and thoughts out this way help... especially when I can't seem to verbalize them. I think I can sleep now... Ian is already quietly snoring away. Ooga Booga.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007


YAY!!! It's supposed to rain again this weekend... YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I'm done. Anyway, it's going to rain this weekend and yet today is a high of 80 degrees... WTH! I am stuck to my desk preparing for a big meeting next week. I can't believe the end of the year is this busy. I finally don't work in an area that is finance related. Usually end of the year for financial institutions are crazy busy with reconciliations and things like that. However, it seems the biotech industry is crazy busy as well. With different agencies going on vacation and important reviewers taking leave... it all mashes together and everything becomes due at once. To top it off, we have to go through the process of reviews and peer-feedback before the end of the year. Like everyone else, I am definitely looking forward to time off. More so because I get a visit from Ian. YAY!!!!

Someone PICK HIM UP!!!! Geez!

Monday, December 3, 2007

Seahawks Recap Week 13

We move to 8 & 4 with a win over the Eagles. My favorite part is when the announcer calls Lofa "Twopoo".

December Is Here!

This month just kind of creeped up on me! I really wish I lived some where that didn't have the sucky weather California has. Give me snow. Give me rain. Give me sweaters and scarves... I would give anything to live in a place that had seasonal weather. It is soooo depressing have the same thing every day... 60 - 70 degrees with little if any clouds in the sky. I would give up anything, except for Ian, to be able to live some where cold. I am not my happiest when there are days like this. Sunny, calm, perfect. Perfectly awful. I would be much more grateful of the sunny days if I could count on having a few months of cold and cloudy ones. Anyway, Ian comes back in 23 days. Must gather presents and plan our days... 10 Blissful Days with Ian... /starts praying for rain.

And a snowy bunneh...