Monday, April 23, 2007

Paste Personality

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot?
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd

This weekend was... eventful.  I lost a friendship that had been slowly falling apart since the beginning of the year.  It is this horrible feeling of loss and guilt for not trying to make it work... but at the same time...  Relationships should not be this hard.  Also, said friend should not use phrases said by people from my past against me.  It is extremely hurtful and does not reflect reality at all.  I like my life, I enjoy my friendships and if that phrase was true... I would still be in Florida, I would still be miserable and in a dead end life and relationship.  But I am not.  Furthermore... if said friend had paid any attention whatsoever they would know said phrase was completely false. 

I miss so many things from this friendship it hurts.  But at the same time... it hasn't been good for awhile... I don't want to rewind the clock.  I doubt I can recreate the way things used to be... I just need to slowly forget if there is no hope.  It would be so much better if we were hamsters wouldn't it?

Anyway, I am in the middle of Biological Anthropology hell and I can't look away from my notes.  My exam is tomorrow and I think I am around 75% confident.  I bought a book on Seattle this weekend called Access Seattle.  Can't be more excited.. I need a vacation and I need some rain.  It sprinkled this weekend and it's completely sunny today.  Boo. 

Here is something to make you go awww... or maybe it's just something to make me feel better.

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