Monday, September 8, 2008

Anxiety /sadface

I'm battling through some anxiety right now. I think it's being caused by the new medication my doctor put me on. She gave me Advair for my asthma and for a time it seemed to be working. Then Friday night and Saturday morning I had some severe reactions... fast heart rate, anxiety, depression... I was just so over being sick. After I came to the conclusion that it just had to be the Advair, I stopped taking it and felt a little better. Sunday evening and this morning, I'm pretty anxious... heart is hovering around the high 90s... which of course effects my breathing. All in all it is just turning me into a hypochondriac. I hate it. I just want to be healthy and back to normal. I have this extreme fear of death right now. I've put so much stress on Ian by just being sick. This is not helping.

Either way, I think I'm still having a stroke of luck. I have a face to face meeting with the hiring manager for the position I applied for in Canada. She was extremely nice on the phone and it's a job I know I could do and do well. Ian and I are going to take a mini-vacation to Niagara Falls while I'm there. We are staying at the Great Wolf Lodge. Aside from all of this... it's September and slowly becoming turning to the fall season.

Anyway, I better get back to work... and try to calm down a bit.

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