Another early Tuesday that is shaping up to be a long one. I didn't sleep much last night and probably won't sleep much tonight either. I have one more meeting to attend and then class tonight. I don't have much to say today either... here is some music... maybe tomorrow I will be back on track...
John Mayer and his awesome facial expressions...
I am super busy today and don't have much time to put a better post together. Anyway, I need a laugh.
I think one of my flaws is that I think too much. I analyze everything. I was sitting here after finishing up a bunch of stuff and I started listening to that damn song. Drink up baby down... are you in or are you out... leave your things behind... cuz it's all going off without you... Basically at what point do I let go of all my mistrusts and let down my wall? I can say forever how I'm not ready but really... am I ever going to be? This isn't a dress rehearsal... this is it. I am not quite sure if I believe in the whole heaven/hell/afterlife thing... I certainly hope things could end so perfectly that I end up with all my friends and family. But... what a sad life to lead if one does not let the people that matter in. I am far too weak for the emotions that I have been feeling lately. Check my vitals... I've been held hostage... A captive of this passive shell... Give me gravity... give me clarity... give me something to rely on...
It is that weakness... where you just want a guy to stand with you... lean back against and be held by him. Let go... and allow someone else to carry your world for a little bit... That weakness scares me... but I think I am ready for it again.
I came home from work early because I am not feeling good.. My boss basically shoo'd me out of the office. Ugh. I feel horrible. Here is something to make you laugh. Have a good weekend.
So not wanting this day to begin. So wanting this day to end. *mumbles something incoherent about going back to bed*
But don't forget...
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead. -- Bertrand Russell
You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her. -- Anonymous
Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything. -- Katherine Hepburn
Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love. -- Albert Einstein
I read that if you don't have sex for a year, you can actually become "revirginized". -- Charlotte from Sex and the City
I was fairly sad/quiet last night. I am not sure what was going through my head. I looked through pictures I had all over my computer... past, present and wishful future. Even now, I sit here... look down at my desk and just listen to myself breathe. Why is that? It's not a really interesting sound... lol. I turn off the sound in my head and just listen. Maybe I am just tired? I don't know. A lot on my mind? I was trying to pin down one thought while I was doing it again.. and I couldn't come up with anything. It's like you get to a point where there are so many thoughts in your head... so many balls up in the air (no jokes please~)... that you can't pick one out of the bunch to focus on.
Maybe this is all tied to sleep? It seems like the more sleep I get the more off my days are. If I only get a few hours, my days are very clear and I get through them easier. You would think it would be the opposite. Or maybe I am just missing something out of my day. That could always be it.
Anyway, I realized last night that every Tuesday from now until at least May will be a very long day. The meeting that I had this morning is a global conference and starts really early. Fun! I guess for now... I just have to get all my ducks in a row...
I know... I know... everyone hates this song. But it's a happy song and I like it. Shush all of you.
Things are good here. Tomorrow is going to be the longest day ever. I have to be at work at 6:45am and I won't see my bed/house until 10:30pm. Well, maybe earlier than that because I have an exam. Alright... I hear the ding of my inbox flying so I better go. Enjoy the video - you know you like it!
