Smile! Though Your Throat Is Aching

Ian Is Sick =(

Because It's Worth It

I just watched the wife of a dying man say that the only phrase that helps her through the day is "I have all that I need". The man was asked what he sees when he looks at his wife... and he said I just love looking at her. It is worth it... to have something like that.

Amen, Grandma!

Adding To The List...

...of things I want.

Keep Your Chin Up

I was having a really hard time last night. I am stressed out but I am not sure that "stressed" is the right word. I'm burnt out. It's the hard mix of keeping a relationship afloat across 2500 miles... the pain of having to wait... the issues of work... little things... and the fear that if I'm not happy all the time, it's going to have bad consequences.

Ian had to work on the weekend. We spend all week looking forward to 2 days of just us. To have that interrupted is painful. Then last night, I had internet issues. It kept connecting and disconnecting. Ian had a bad day... I couldn't make it better. I would give anything make it better. Because he has made my days something to look forward to. And my internet issue just made it worse. It was a comedy of errors yesterday. The internet went out. My drapes fell and probably won't go back up. I couldn't sleep. I played Tropico (lol) and once it became successful a hurricane hit and I was forced to become a dictator. Needless to say, my regime soon fell to a military coup. /sigh

I try to be more positive than this... but right now moving to Canada and being with Ian seems so far off. Even if I'm lucky enough to get a transfer I have to wait until the Fall of 2009. I just want to be content already. I hate this area. I hate the weather. The only plus is that I am close to my mom. I'm lucky I landed on my feet but come on... I deserve to have a full life... instead of this half life I am living. Nothing exists outside of my world... work, home, Ian. It's repetitive. It's not how I want to live.

I think this is just one of those times where I pity myself, cry about it and then I'm good for another few months or so. At the very least, I have goals. Goals are good right?

STEPHAN KING IS THE MAN!!!

Truer words have never been spoken. At least, by someone who people might actually listen to.

The most effective bar against what was called ''the seduction of the innocent'' when this hot-button issue centered on violent comic books 60 years ago is still parents who know and care not just about what their kids are watching and reading, but what they're doing and who they're hanging with. Parents need to have the guts to forbid material they find objectionable...and then explain why it's being forbidden. They also need to monitor their children's lives in the pop culture — which means a lot more than seeing what games they're renting down the street.
-- Stephen King: Videogame Lunacy

Emo Monday

I am not particularly happy today. So let's embrace it and listen to some Emo-ish music. Enjoy. QQ.

Panic! At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon

Fall Out Boy - (Can't believe I am going to include this song title... /sigh) I'm Like A Lawyer with the Ways I'm Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You)

Not Wednesday, Not Yet Friday

Since I am waiting on everyone to come in this morning... I did a little surfing. Here's what I found:

• I think Tom & Matt should spend a little less time with skanks and a lot more time with their babies. But that's just me.
  
  
• I got my SWAG from Nintendo. All they did was make it so that I want to buy a Wii. Oh, and a Wii Fit.
  
  
• Clinton is getting desperate. Okay, okay... she always was.
  
  
• My new favorite comic is Dark Legacy. It will probably only be funny to people who game... but I think it's hilarious.
  
  
• And last but not least... The chicks on WoW Insider give girls in WoW a bad name. They post these lame and pointless entries... The site would be good if they ditched the girls and the two column format.

Anyway, here's a picture of a bunny.

Moonstruck

During my last trip to Canada, I was flipping channels there was a movie called Moonstruck, which is about love and relationships. Later we decided to go into the hot tub and as we stepped in I saw the moon.. It was full and absolutely beautiful. The rays filtered through the fence and it was amazing. Definitely a sign.